Three Songs... Three Hours

I spent the entire summer not listening to the radio. Silence is what I craved, and silence is about all I could handle. I just couldn't do "words" for some reason.

When I worked, I worked in silence (basically always have and to be honest one huge perk of working from home is not have the musak speaker directly above my desk).

When I drove, I drove in silence, or at least without the radio on. Most trips to and from the lake I had the teenager and pooch with me, but he was usually beyond good to go with the radio off when I handed him my phone for an hour of roblox in the backseat (and yes, I did try and also have conversation and interaction with him as well).

And when I ran, I ran listening to either Christmas piano music or a mix of other classical songs in a random Spotify playlist. Yeah, call me crazy.

It was a season of simply no lyrics. No messages. No podcasts. No words.

And then one day my hubs had driven my car (which he hadn't done in about two years due to a broken drivers seat switch so the seat only stayed in place for "short people" but I had finally gotten my six foot five son to pretzel himself into it, bring it to his shop, and fix it for me... but I digress...)

So the hubs had taken my car somewhere and of course had turned on the radio. And I drove to drop off my son somewhere, and as I was driving on Hwy 10 back to my house I heard a song for the very first time.

You know, one of those songs that come out of the radio and just grab you, overtake you, imprint that exact moment to your memory immediately and forever.

It was a very hard week for our town, our community, our schools, our places of work, as we all woke up one morning to an expected passing of a very young woman, only days into the start of her Junior year of high school. So between that and my own personal sting of grief with our Faith MaryJo... I found myself in my car, in my garage, alone and just weeping.

Casting Crowns - Scars in Heaven
If I had only known the last time would be the last time
I would've put off all the things I had to do
I would've stayed a little longer, held on a little tighter
Now what I'd give for one more day with you
'Cause there's a wound here in my heart where something's missing
And they tell me that it's gonna heal with time
But I know you're in a place where all your wounds have been erased
And knowing yours are healed is healing mine
The only scars in heaven, they won't belong to me and you
There'll be no such thing as broken, and all the old will be made new
And the thought that makes me smile now, even as the tears fall down
Is that the only scars in heaven are on the hands that hold you now
I know the road you walked was anything but easy
You picked up your share of scars along the way
Oh, but now you're standing in the sun, you've fought your fight and your race is run
The pain is all a million miles away
The only scars in heaven, they won't belong to me and you
There'll be no such thing as broken, and all the old will be made new
And the thought that makes me smile now, even as the tears fall down
Is that the only scars in heaven, yeah, are on the hands that hold you now
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, for the hands that hold you now
There's not a day goes by that I don't see you
You live on in all the better parts of me
Until I'm standing with you in the sun, I'll fight this fight and this race I'll run
Until I finally see what you can see, oh-oh
The only scars in heaven, they won't belong to me and you
There'll be no such thing as broken, and all the old will be made new
And the thought that makes me smile now, even as the tears fall down
Is that the only scars in heaven are on the hands that hold you now


Later that night I had to drive to another neighboring town for an apportionment, and I had left the radio on. Another song struck my heart on the way there... and then another on the way home.

Three new songs (to me) within three hours.
God wanted to share them with me that day, and I'm sampling wanting to share them with you today.


Leanna Crawford - Truth I'm Standing On

Scared, oh I thought I knew scared
Now I'm so filled with fear
I can barely move
Doubts, I've had my share of doubts
But never more than right now
I'm wondering where are You
I'm on the edge of fall apart
But somehow Your promises
Find my troubled heart
This is the truth I'm standing on
Even when all my strength is gone
You are faithful forever
And I know You'll never
Let me fall
Right now I'm choosing to believe
Someday soon I'll look back and see
All the pain had a purpose
Your plan was perfect all along
This is the truth I'm standing on
Good, I believe You're still good
Even when life's not good
I will not loose this hope
The God who parts the sea
Promises He's gonna
Make a way for me
This is the truth I'm standing on
Even when all my strength is gone
You are faithful forever
And I know You'll never
Let me fall
Right now I'm choosing to believe
Someday soon I'll look back and see
All the pain had a purpose
Your plan was perfect all along
This is the truth I'm standing on
My rock my shield my firm foundation
I know I will not be shaken
You remind me
Where my help comes from
This is the truth I'm standing on
Even when all my strength is gone
You are faithful forever
And I know You'll never
Let me fall
Right now I'm choosing to believe
Someday soon I'll look back and see
All the pain had a purpose
Your plan was perfect all along
This is the truth I'm standing on

Jack Cassidy Let Go, Let God
My fear got me struck down
Got me knocked out
By the hands of the enemy
Those lies had me held down
'Til I found out
That is not my identity
I found my life when I laid it down
And all my hope is in You now
My faith is in You Jesus
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be me
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be free
Your yolk is easy
Your burden is light
My daily bread and my daily delight
I'm learning to let go and let God
So I can be the real me
I'm giving over my heart
For a new start
'Cause I've come to the end of me
I'm learning that in Your love
There is freedom
Even for a wretch like me
I found my life when I laid it down
And all my hope is in You now
My faith is in You Jesus
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be me
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be free
Your yolk is easy
Your burden is light
My daily bread and my daily delight
I'm learning to let go and let God
So I can be the real me
I've been hurting
I've been burdened
Too long, too long
Fear is falling
Chains are breaking
So long, so long
I've been hurting
I've been burdened
Too long, too long
Fear is falling
Chains are breaking
So long, so long
Let go, let God
Let go, let God
Let go, let God
Let go and let God
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be me
I'm learning to let go and let God
Show me how to be free
Your yolk is easy
Your burden is light
My daily bread and my daily delight
I'm learning to let go and let God
So I can be the real me
Let go, let God
Let go, let God
Let go, let God
So I can be the real me

Other honorable mentions I'd love to also share:

Jonny Diaz - Breathe

Ninety miles an hour going fast as I can
Trying to push a little harder trying to get the upper hand
So much to do in so little time, it's a crazy life
It's ready, set, go it's another wild day
When the stress is on the rise in my heart I feel you say just
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be

Chris Tomlin - Nobody Love Me Like You
Morning, I see You in the sunrise every morning
It's like a picture that You've painted for me
A love letter in the sky
Nobody loves me like You

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